I don't know.

I don't know what to do. I feel like he is cheating on me... but not the "normal" kind of cheating. I think he likes someone else.. maybe even hangs out with them. His behavior is just so different. He's been saying that he's been feeling guilty recently. He says he doesn't know why. I was in his car the other day and the visor/mirror was down on the passenger side. He's been accusing me of cheating and being distant... but.... I honestly think it's him. Regardless of what he is doing, I just with he would be honest with me. I mean, I know I'm not the prettiest thing he's ever seen.. I know there are going to be attractive girls walking through his life. I don't expect him to be blind towards them. I don't know... I know it's terrible, but I googled "signs of your boyfriend cheating"... and 5 out of the 7 things it had mentioned, he has done, or said he felt those ways. I don't know what to do. It just makes me feel..... yucky, I guess is a good word. I love him so much... I think trust might be our issue in our relationship. He doesn't trust me. Maybe if he did, he wouldn't be saying the things he is. I miss who we use to be... Fun and outgoing. Upbeat and loving. These days I feel like I have to beg him just to kiss me. Man, how I miss those times, when I lived downstairs, and we would lay on the couch together. Even though there wasn't enough room, and most of the time I couldn't breath, I felt like that all didn't matter, because I was laying next to someone who genuinely adored me. I'm just his girlfriend these days. Nothing very special. He said I treat him like his parents treat him. I just want the old Dave back. I miss him so much. Don't get me wrong, I want him to pursue his dreams, and live his life the way he wants it. I honestly do! But... recently, I feel like he wants to keep me in his back pocket. I don't like being there. I'm either with him, or I'm not... But I guess that's up to him. I love him.