I'm okay :o)

Honesty is probably the best thing. I talked with him, he was so understanding and cute. lol, I know it sounds funny.... but, seriously. We talked and things are good.
We leave for Florida in 2 days!! 48 hours from now, I'll be in the warmer climate! I CAN'T WAIT! I don't remember being on a plane. I've never been to Florida. I hope I don't act stupid or anything because I will be so excited!! I don't know what is to do there. I know we are going to Disney for a day (that's sooo expensive) and his dad is going shark fishing, which sounds amazing. I really hope he doesn't mind me going. I would love to see a shark, IN PERSON. I'd be overcoming my "safe-fear" and it would just be a dream come true. I would rather go shark fishing than go to disney, that's how bad I want to go! But, it's ok if I can't go. I'll probably be too tired anyway. lol. Maybe I'll pretend I'm going to bed and then at the last minute, change my mind! ;) anyway, it's not a big deal. I'm excited to feel the sun again. When the sun is so direct you can feel it hugging you inside your skin, that's my favorite. I hope I can get to know his parents better too. For some reason I'm very intimidated by them, but so intrigued as well. I guess that's where he gets his intimidated-ness from.
Thank you, God, for making a job joyful again. I am still looking to leave, but I don't feel like it's an emergency anymore. Thank you for reminding me to humble myself before you every morning when I see the sun rise. That one road where the sun greets me is where I feel like I'm looking at you face-to-face. Thank you, I love it :)
Thank you for my blessings. Thank you that even though I'm struggling through some things, that you are there to cradle me and tell me that you're not leaving me. Even though some relationships fade and jobs don't work out or bills come in, and I bad news from the doctors.. you were and are always there holding my hand. What a humbling year it's been so far. Thank you for teaching me how to become the one you want me to be. It's tough, but I trust your outcome :)